The above title describes my current state very well! I just can't seem to decide what to do. To blog or not to blog. To carry on with making my creations and trying to sell them or not?
Further to my last post announcing that I wouldn't be blogging anymore, I've kind of changed my mind. I've just been taking a little wander around blog land and I know that I would miss it. It's just that I've slightly lost my blogging oomph at bit. It has a great deal to do with the fact I'm still unemployed. It's now 10 months since I lost my job. I girl can only take so many knock backs and in a market where there are so few jobs to apply for it's disheartening when the ones you do apply for you are either under qualified or as today, over-qualified. I went for a job at a bathroom showroom recently. It was mainly sales but when they saw my CV they started talking about offering a design service. All in all I had three interviews with them taking about 3 and a half hours in total, not to mention the research time I spent and the time putting together some ideas of what I could offer. Only to find that they have given the job to another candidate who will be able to 'shift bathrooms quickly' apparently! They say they would like to work with me perhaps on a free-lance basis offering a design service but I'm not holding my breathe. I have a feeling it's all talk and at the end of the day it's not a job with a salary which is what I really need.
So you can probably understand a little of why I'm feeling rather fed up lately. I've lost all my creative inspiration too which is why there is nothing new in the etsy shop. I'm hoping to sell everything off with the hope of a. making a few much needed pennies, and b. having empty studio shelves in the hope of inspiring myself to make some new things.
But my little roam around blog land has given me just a little bit of a boost this evening and reminded me what I used to love about blogging. I've just been looking at Jane's gorgeous new bathroom which cheered me up no end. And a went on a lovely walk around Niki's village which definitely put a smile on my face. There were many other lovely things to be seen on my travels. I want to still be a part of this. I don't want to give up.
I'M STILL HERE and I'll try to cheer myself up a bit and write some pretty blog posts again. Bare with me will you?
9 comments:
I'm so glad! I'd have missed you terribly if you had gone!
Chin up sweetheart. It will all come together in the end.
Ditto what GenerallyGemma said! Keep browsing blogland- there's always something that makes you go ooooooh!
*virtual handhold*
Hi Fiona
I'm so sorry to read that you're feeling down and still trying to catch that elusive job. And there was me thinking no news was good news.
Chin up, keep smiling and keep in touch!
Sue x
Hi Fiona,
I'm so glad to hear that you changed your mind and won't close your blog. I really like you and your blog as it was one of the very first blogs I started reading before having my own. I hope things improve for you and that you can find a job that you really enjoy soon.
Take care,
x
I always read your blog,even if I don't always comment.
Your blog is lovely...so I am glad you are sticking around!;-)
Keep at it your blog is delightful----good luck with a job ---- it will all happen---just keep positive australia
I agree with those who commented before me ~ we would miss you Fiona.
Sorry to read that you are having such a rough time. I know how difficult the job market is at the moment. I have had a similar experience this year, with people calling me about interviews and promising all sorts, only for nothing to come of it all. Eventually, I was lucky enough to stumble across a job through a former colleague ~ but it is only a 8 hours a week at the moment. Though times.
Take care and I will be stopping by to visit again soon ~ thanks for the lovely comment you left on my blog.
Marie x
I have just discovered your pretty blog. Sorry to hear about your circumstances. I am self employed and do experience some months without any work. Not a nice feeling especially when bills have to be paid. Staying positive is vital but I know not always easy...
I wish you well and hope that something that you like will turn up soon.
Take care
Isabelle x
Hiya Fiona....sorry to find life so tough for your right now, but very glad to find you decided to stay in Blogland....you would be missed for sure.
Hoping life begins to look/feel a little brighter and happier for you soon...sending love and hugs
Lucexxxxxxxxxxx
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